God takes away to give you better.

If God puts me through, he'll get me out of it.

I haven't felt soooo happy in so long. Or so giddy over someone.

I'm happy (: & it feels good.

Friends & Family is this Sunday. Soooo excited. This is my 3rd & last one ): Poops.

I hung out with Desiree & 210 today. Still am actually .. soo stupid. "I'M CONVERSATING WITH HIM !!!!" "Conversing ?!" I miss these hoes !

Thanks to all the people who bought my tickets last minute just so I can perform (: Those are some goooood ass friends. I really need to find better friends. I'm really sick of stupid people. Like .. hella.

Friday tomorrow ! & I have rehearsal 6:30-11. Sat 11-9:30. Sun. 9-the end of the show !

xoxo

"I was drunk!"

I don't think that should ever be an excuse for why you did what you did. Everyone has self control even if they're intoxicated. It's pretty stupid how people can use that excuse. If you're gonna hook up with people at a party, DON'T be with someone you "care" about a few hours before telling them you only do that lovey dovey shit with them when really..YOU DON'T. Like seriously, I'm sick of all these lies. Lies on top of lies on top of lies. How are you ever suppose to know what's forreal ?

You can't have your fuckin cake and eat it.

On the bright side, I met the cutest boy yesterday (: Ahhhhh so hot. Hopefully we see each other again soon ! (:

xoxo

B$

I'm hella fuckin tired of bullshit.

I don't know how many times I can stress "Just tell me and I won't be mad, if you just hide it from me of course I'm going to be mad" and you STILL won't fuckin understand that meaning.

Why do guys tell you "I miss you" or "I really care about you" but behind your back they'll be out eating w/ some girl without you knowing. I'm hella tired of people being shady and shit. BE FUCKIN REAL. Don't tell me bullshit when you don't even mean it. Especially if you already know leaving is gonna be hard. FUCK YOUUUUUUUUUUUU. 17 months & you're still the same shit head you've always been.

I cannot fuckin wait to leave. THAN YOU'RE GOING TO FUCKIN REGRET EVERYTHING.

Think before you fuckin act seriously.

I'm hella heated if you can't tell. Good fucking night.

xoxo

One Tree Hill

I loooove this show. My favorite episode is season 3 episode 9 (:

But anyways i'm kinda too tired to blog.

To sum it up .. i'm so tired of being confused.

I'm counting the days until its time to leave. I'm realllly excited.

Anyway, I'm done doing my nails.

I'm so tired of SD.

San Diego.

Home sweet home ..

Boy do I wish I was still in San Francisco right now ):

I just got back like .. 3 hours ago ? Hahaha. I had sooo much fun in SF. I fell in love with the campus while I was there. I'm 100% sure that I want to go to SFSU. I don't know exactly why I love being there so much .. there's just so much to do. & everyone there has spirit. I feel like Mira Mesa .. is old. All you see are these little middle schoolers at the movies every week sucking on their boyfriend/girlfriend's faces. That use to be the "spot" & it was actually fun. Plus, prices to watch a movie now is ridiculous.

& I have to say I miss going every friday to actually watch a movie .. with you.

San Francisco is going to be the perfect opportunity to get over you .. it's too hard when we live like what .. 3 turns away from each other. It was nice having four missed calls from you, and calling you to hear "Why didn't you answer. Finally you called ! I miss you !!!!" that was quite cute. And the "call me when you wake up, so we can talk i want to say hi and tell you i miss ya". But, knowing you .. it's not going to last long. You only miss me when I'm gone & you can't do anything about it. I need to find a better guy. =/

Good thing there were super cute guys at SFSU !! Bahahaha.

Idk what else to say ! Me & Brittney got from Haight St. all the way to Powell to 29th & Doloris ! Bahahah. I'm getting better at this.

Okay .. I'm super tired. Latuh !

xoxo

Oh the irony.

People could look at the picture and knoowww what's so weird about it lols. But really, it wasn't even as awkward as you think it'would be. I had fun (: It's been a while since I actually went out like this. And I reallllyyy like hanging out with this group. They're just down for fun.

I felt quite flattered this weekend actually. Knowing how mad someone got over things. Lol. Foo, I aint cho girl. Calm the eff down.

I watched High School Musical 3 again .... I bawled like a little baby again LOL.

Thanks Karen & Keilani for being there this weekend too. Love you guyssss. We were all in a pissy mood at first hahah.

I'm leaving thursday for San Fran. Woot woot. Sooo excited.

xoxo

Go w/ your head not your heart.

I don't know what to think anymore.

Yeah, my heart wants it. But my brain knnoowws it's not good.

I hate hate hate you. Seriously.

I have rehearsal soon. My dad left for the weekend to go to the desert. Random. Just like this weather -_-

This weather is soo icky. Last time I checked this is SAN DIEGO. As much as I hate cold weather, I cannot wait to leave.

High School Musical 3 is so depressing, since we're seniors .. & they're seniors ahhaha. I wish life was like a movie ! Seems so easy. But seriously .. it's almost over ):

xoxo

Studio 429.

I'm going to base this whollleeee blog on you guys because I love you soooo much.

I was thinking back on Showstoppers weeekend .. I've never been so happy in my life when I was there with everyone. Ahhhh. I wish that weekend can just come back. I swear I didn't worry about anything that whole weekend. Shoot, Me & Benice didn't even worry about our ride back home until it was time to leave -_- hahahaha.

I still remember tryouts clearly. I remember coming riiiight before tryouts started since I was running late. I got exactly 2 hours of sleep that night. I had my first realll break up the day before of tryouts and these complete strangers were there to make me feel better. Andrew & Gio attacked me when I first got to the door and was like "ARE YOU TRYING OUT FOR TRU-DEF ?!" Once I said yes all you hear is "yaaaaaaaaaaay !!!!" from everyone else trying out.

Our first rehearsal was always so fun. Playing games to get closer. I'm waaaay too attached to everyone now ): I'm soooo happy I met them. & I thank GOD for giving me you guys.

Not only my team, everyone else there makes me happy. Even if I don't know them. The fact that they're dancing at studio 429 makes me happy (: I met a lot of new people there, and a lot of my close friends are there ! I don't even see them everyday, and I'm closer to them than my friends at school.

I don't know how it'll be when I'm gone. I wish there was a UHAUL truck big enough to fit the whole studio & everyone in it so everyone can just come with me. But .. that's me being selfish.

Yesterday we went to the beach. It was amazinngggg. The weather was beautiful! & now it's back to being cold -_- I had so much fun with everyone again. The water was FREEZING. Mine & J.R.'s feet turned numb from the water ! The food at Ruby's was great ! Thanks everyone who came out to support us (:

Finaallllyyy. I wanna thank allll the directors at the studio. I use to think they would pick favorites. Idk why .. I'm stupid. But they're amazing people. Without them .. we wouldn't be where we are now. None of us. I realized they put THEIR life on hold just for us all the time. I am truly blessed to have all this extra help. After our first performance I just wanted to break down in tears because you can TELL how proud they were. Everything they said was true, just have fun & not worry about what place we got. All that fun paid off. They're like our 2nd parents to me (:

I love Studio 429.

& I love our parents. For supporting every single one of us.

I'm going through thankful moment ahahah.

Yack, got me crying. I hate thinking about leaving you guys. When Darryl said it was his last Friends & Family today, it made me really sad because it was MY last Friends & Family too. For a while maybe. I started out at Studio 429. My first performance was a month later for Friends & Family. That's where it all began. When I saw Choreo Cookies perform last, thaaat was my inspiration to keep me dancing. I wish I never took so many breaks w/ dancing. I would've gotten a lot further !

But thanks everyone. I love you!

xoxo