I got admitted .. woohoo. =/ I really am happy .. it was my number one choice at the beginning of the year. But now that I've grown to looove my team & my close friends .. it's so hard making a decision.
I hated living here and I just wanted to pack everything & just leave. Now I just wanna get out of high school. I don't know how I'm going to leave Studio 429. My second family ): It's amazing how close I got to them..it sucks how we were just talking about how much we meant to each other ): That makes everything so much harder.
As much as I wanted to get in, I wish I didn't because I wouldn't have to make sucha hard decision. I feel like I was more happy to get admitted into Cal State San Marcos because it was right there from home..my studio & my real home hahah.
Being a senior IS tough. Sooo many decisions to make.
I want to leave for the experience .. but geeeeze. &&&& I know I can always come back if things don't work out for me there. I just don't know.
& I feel like crying. Even though that wouldn't help the situation at all .. I'm sucha baby I hate it.
"Where is #*&$*#$(#$ I need a shoulder to cry on !" Hahha. Our convos. Oh how J.R. can make me feel better. This is why I love my teammates. "Just think you didn't get accepted, so the decision will be easier !" Yeah J.R. it doesn't help when I already read the letter & saw the e-mail.
Ahh .. I'm so stressed. I tend to stress myself out way more than I should be.
Oh & having .... back in my life doesn't help at all. I seriously just wanna shut the door on the for good until I leave and maybe this decision will be easier. At the same time .. I know w/o them, I'd be going through hell 10x more.
Friick.
Tru-Def had a performance today at Marshall Middle School. Hahaha..that was great. Once again, I love my team ! I have no idea how to stress that anymore. I have so much fun with them. They really are amazing people ..
But I should get to bed. So tired & overwhelmed. Good nigh.
xoxo
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