Cutie with a booty.

Geeze I haven't really blogged.

Well let's just go back to this weekend. It was THEEE best.

Friday: BTD Day !
We had a sleepover at my house. Which was pretty bomb. (: I was too scared after we watched The Grudge though ); Some cutie was there too ! Hahaha. Rock Band <3 Oh gosh. So fun !

Saturday: MC Airbands
Amazing job from everyone ! It was fun. But I'm so mad @$!$# didn't say hi to me even though his ass was right next to me & across from me in the parking lot. PFT YOU. I didn't really do much that. I just knocked out when I got home hahaha.

Sunday: Break Yo Self
This was fun. But I didn't know how long breakdancing could go on for LOL. I feel inspired to be a bgirl but .. knowing me, it'll go no where hahaha.

I NEED A HAIR CUT u_u & I miss you. LOL. Oh man. I'm so tired. 4 hours of dance today. Woohoo -_-

xoxo

Hot hot hot.

This weather .. sucks. I'm too lazy to blog.

I hate boys. I hate girls. I hate the world. Hi, I'm negative nancy.

Bye (;

xoxo

Trip dates.

Soooo looking at our old "trip dates" pictures made me really miss junior year.

For all of you who don't know, trip dates = christine & justin, janelle & chris, and me & andrew. Funny how we're all seperated now ): Couple wise.

I just remembering having those random fridays where we went out w/ each other. Like going to the movies, proud that the person you're holding hands w/ was yours. Buying 40's and going to a dark park just to kicket w/ each other. It sounds fuckin dumb, but it was hella fun !

Dancing w/ each other w/ the music on a cell phone. Peeing in bushes when you hella had to go hahahaha. Jumping over fences. Oh gosh.

I wish we could go back to those days .. I was happy b/c I was chubbier. I believe people get bigger when they're happy (:

xoxo

Bestfriend.

I take that blog back from earlier. My bestfriend is the fuckin` shit (:

Through every single thing I've gone through and all the choices I've made stupid or not, she's been there to support me through everything. I don't know what I'm gonna do when we're 8 hours away ): Poops.

I feel like I'M the shitty bestfriend for ever feelings how I did. But that's where the paranoia comes in. But I love you.

& thanks for the phone call. I miss you too. That's when everything turns upside down.

xoxo

Why do I care ?

Ugh .. for some reason I've been caring too much.

It's weird how I miss you now. I guess it's because I know you still lurk around my life ..

I've been feeling so .. ick lately. I don't wanna miss you. Someone who fucked me over so many times. But why do I ?!

Today's been an off day for me .. I'm CLEANING. & I never clean unless I'm mad or sad. Ugh.

I can't wait for our next performance.

MC Airbands. April 25. Go.

& I'm hella stressing over SFSU. Who knew staying in was so hard ..

xoxo

Miss you ..

Happy suppose to be 18 months.

I miss you.

xoxo

World of Dance 2009

Was fuckin` amazing.

Tru-Definition got 3rd place and WHAT ?! This was our first hip-hop competition. Not just a hip-hop competition, but one of the biggest ! I'm so proud of us. I wasn't expecting this at all. Like real shit. The teams there were pretty freaking good. Congrats to APT for 1st place, and their fine ass boys :P Bahahah. All of us cried so much. I SWEAR ONLY THEY MAKE ME CRY. -_- We were all so happy. I don't think ANY of us were expecting it. We worked so hard for it (: & it's sooo nice to hear "good job ! you guys did great" from random people you don't know. & Hearing "You guys deserved it ! We see you working so hard during rehearsal" from your own studio members. It feels good ! Especially how we're the youngest team that competed ! Ahhh. Thanks Kristen & Jeff for putting everything together. We wouldn't have gotten there without you guys.

Breakthrough did amazing too, with their new medley. I'm proud of everyone ! (:

I met Dominic from Quest <3333333333>

xoxo

Shitty friends.

So now & days I have no clue who to trust. I swear you can call them your bestfriend EASILY, but are they really ? Do they treat you as a bestfriend should treat you ?

I don't know .. I can't trust anyone now. I feel like ever since that Ashley incident, I've been paranoid about being backstabbed again or I have my guards up hardcore this time.

You say I'm a bestfriend, and you wouldn't do something like that to me, then why are you ? I sound like I'm letting a guy get into our friendship but really I'm not. He's not my man, I know. But you knnneeewww how excited I was to try and chase after something new. & how much I was into him. You even said you were happy for me. & now I hear you're telling people around school that you're "talking" to him ? That's pretty fucked up. I swear something happens between us every two years. It's stupid. But whatever, I guess that's fine for you. That's not how I treat my friends. I love you though, because you've always been there for me .. I feel like our friendship is fading away again.

I have the stomach flu. Yay for yacking after rehearsal. We had rehearsal 8:30-11 last night and I did not feel good at all. Pretty intense if you ask me. I loooove my team SO much. & I'm glad to say, I'm not quitting anymore (:

I swear, the only thing that makes me happy now is dance and my team. It's like I'm in love with it/them ! I don't cry over anything else but them. I haven't cried since sunday .. over something stupid. Everything that's been happening to me that I usually would cry over, I don't anymore ! I only cry when I think about how happy they make me. On this stupid blogspot, the only good thing is dance, everything else is just bad. I watched a sad movie and I usually would cry, but I didn't LOL. I cried sooo much last night at rehearsal because I realized how great of a studio I have. I'm so sad to leave that because it's going to be hard finding another studio I can call family.

I am so thankful to have Kristen & Jeff as my directors. They seriously treat us as their own kids. I've never been on a team before or another studio, but I've never seen directors get so close to their students. They could care less about how we placed or if we fell on our faces during a performance. Just seeing us having fun w/ something we love makes them happy. Ahhhh & I wanna cry every single time I think about it. They BAWL over us. We make them just as happy as they make us. I seriously don't want to leave them at all. Ughhhh.

We have World of Dance tomorrow, I'm so fuckin excited yet sooo scared. This audience is going to be 10x bigger than Friends & Family and Showstoppers. Friends & Family was sold out too. Oh geeze.

I needa get my stuff ready for tomorrow. Sleep over at Chantal's tonight with Olivia & Marilyn. I'm excited (: I get to spend another weekend with my loves.

"IS MY BOYFRIEND GONNA BE THERE ?! MAYBE I CAN SNEAK INTO HIS BED" Hahahahah. But Nic's still my #1 boo lmao.

Later bitches and hoes.

xoxo

Lesson learned.

"Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me."

I've never been so stupid. But you win the award of most stupid person on earth. Why would you ever bring your new little .. thing to MY dance show. The one that means the most to me right now, my last Friends & Family, the SHOW that got me dancing in the first place. My 3rd & last year doing it, you fuckin ruined it. Also my 2nd to last performance since I'm quitting pretty soon..

Whatever, I'm fuckin dunzo for good. & yes, I know I say that a lot. But I put this on everything I'M DONE. You can't fuckin try & come back every single time I tell you I'm done w/ us than ditch me when you find another girl. I hope you have fun w/ that piece of shit. She's everything you hate anyway. But not to be bitter anymore, I'm happy you're happy. I still love & care like I always have. So I'm happy for you .. I guess.

I don't understand why some people can't just break up with the person, or have closure. It hurts more when you just leave them hanging .. plus it saves you the annoyance of having to ignore them. I don't get people sometime.

I love Avanti. He's right, I do need a MAN that can treat me like a princess because I DO deserve it. Nothing less. Seriously, I put so much time & effort into this damn relationship, and all you gave me was bullshit. gjagajlgjaf.

Whatever, I'm done. I'm surprised I'm not bawling over this shit.

But on the bright side, this weekend was AMAZING. I was with the most wonderful people ever, Studio 429 family. Duh. They were there for me the whole entire weekend. I'll recap (:

Friday, March 27, 2009:
We had night rehearsal with the 429 teams to put the closing piece together. It was quite fun actually ! Hahaha. I met a loooot of new people. Everyone has so much talent. I'm proud to say I'm apart of that family. Me & Benice went around telling everyone our lame jokes hahahaha.

After practicing from 6:30PM-10:30PM, a lot of us went to T.G.I.F.'s to eat dinner and celebrate Tracy's birthday. How fun was thaaat. We were there from like .. 11PM-3AM waiting for our food and just talking. Hung out with theeee cutest boy ever hahaha :P Even though he's mean ! In a playful way atleast.

I noticed me and Benice are always stuck together w/ no ride haha. I Disneyland, we had no ride home. Night rehearsal, no ride home. We basically depended on Brian & Carlo all weekend for rides. Which was also fun ! Thanks Brian for freakin scaring us 927395278 times at night !

Saturday, March 28, 2009:
All day rehearsal this day. 11AM-9:30!! That's like sweatshop hours right there. It was so fun though. Being surrounded by the people you love most. I have to thank Benice for being there for me the most this day. & Laverne. I hellllaaa love them. It's gonna be so hard to leave .. ):

The cutie with a booty said good job & hugged me & Benice after LOL. We were like .. dying hahahaha.

We ate McDonald's after .. the fatest place ever ! We gained back all those calories we burned off from the day how sad :P

Sunday, March 29, 2009:
Friends & Family Expo 2009. My last one .. I CRIED SOOOOOOOOO MUCH WHEN I GOT HOME. I am SO proud of everyone that performed. Especially the mom's that performed w/ us (: You guys made the last one the best one yet ! I'm so happy I was apart of all of this. Thank you everyone who came out to see it, because it meant the WORLD to me. I know $18 isn't cheap. So real shit, thanks.

I messed up .. like twice. But who gives? I had so much fun. I can't wait until World of Dance this Saturday now !

I just can't get enough (:

Thank you, thank you, thank you, THANK you for everyone that supported me throughout everything. I don't know how much more I can stress it ! I'm really thankful for my studio, my directors, my teammates, my 2nd family. I love you.

Today:
No biggie. Same old. 3 days until WOD. Yay !

xoxo